Couples!

What’s your boy/girlfriends name? Joe

How did you guys meet? College.

Who asked who out? There wasn't really anyone asking anyone out. Just kinda happened.

Were either of you rebounding from another relationship? No, but I was kinda dating someone else when we started getting involved. (I'm not proud of this.)

How long before your 1st kiss? Before we were dating.

Who initiated the 1st kiss? He did. ^_^

Do you celebrate monthly anniversaries or just yearly? Yearly.

What was the last anniversary you celebrated? One year.

What did you guys get each other? I took him out to a fancy 3-course fondue meal, he got me a DS game, because nerd love.

What is your partner’s best physical trait? His eyes, and his beard.

What is the nicest thing he/she has done for you? He does a lot of wonderful things, so I can't pick out one thing.

Do your parents like your partner? They adore him. He's family now.

Do your partner’s parents like you? His mom loves me. She randomly texts and FB messages me. :P

Does your partner call you by any nicknames or pet names? If so, what? Samface, babe, baby, babers... might be more I'm forgetting.

Do you two have any inside jokes? MANY.

Have you ever gone in public with matching outfits? No, that's kinda gross.

Do you have the same hobbies and interests? Quite a few, though not everything.

What do you actually have in common? Video games, board games, we were both English majors, we both love Netflix, lots of shared music tastes... we have a ton in common, really.

Do you share the same friends? Definitely a few of them.

What is your partners birthday? January 31st

What is their zodiac sign? Aquarius

What does their sign say about their personality? Don't know, don't care. Don't really go for astrology stuff.

Do you read your couples horoscope? Nah. See above comment about astrology.

Do you even believe in that stuff? Again, see above.

Ever been given a promise ring? If so, what were you promising? Ha! Yeah, in high school we promised to love each other forever. I think we actually considered it an engagement ring. It was dumb. 

When did you last give or receive flowers? My birthday a few years ago I got flowers for my birthday from my grama.

How many teddy bears do you own? That he gave me, or in general? Because 0 from him. I have several in general, though.

What is your favorite type of chocolate? White. (Yes, I know it's not real chocolate, and I DGAF.)

How do you feel about Valentines Day? It's alright.

Were you dating your partner last Valentines Day? Yeah.

Are you in love with him/her? Yes.

Define Love: Not really defineable. If you have any doubt, you probably aren't in love.

If you’re in love, how soon did you tell your partner? I blurted it out at a bar while I was kinda drunk (but coherent, I meant it) unintentionally about a month after dating.

Can you see yourself marrying them? Yeah.

Do you think you are too young to get married? Nah.

Anything you want to accomplish before you get married? I told him that he has to finish college first (he has 2 quarters left)

Would you consider eloping? Yeah, but only to keep my stepmom from coming to my wedding.

Would you like to pick out your ring or be surprised? Surprised. He knows what I don't like (gold, diamonds), so I trust him. 

Would you like your partner to ask your father or family’s blessing? No. He knows they'd be fine with it, and my parents would probably laugh at him. :P

Who would you like to walk you down the aisle? I wish that I could have my dad AND my stepdad do it.

If you had a destination wedding where would it be? Eh, don't want that.

Do you already know who you would ask to be in your bridal party? Yeah, though I think there'd be 2 guys and 1 girl in there. XD

A Boyfriend Survey

History

Where did you two first meet?

My best friend from high school had him as his roommate in the dorms 

When exactly did you two first meet?

September 2011

What was your first impression of him?

He was cute and funny and had the best smile.

When did you start liking him?

Oh god. It was just more and more the more I got to know him.

When did you two start going out?

Awhile after my ex and I broke up.

How was with your first kiss with him like?

Kinda intense.

Is he your first boyfriend? If not, then which?

He's my second really serious long-term boyfriend.

Are you his first girlfriend? If not, then which?

I'm his third.

About Him

How much older/younger is he compared to you?

He is 2 years and 2 months older than me.

Hair color?

Light sandy brown

Eye color?

Green

Build?

Usually fit, but a little chubby right now.

Astrological sign?

Aries.

Skin color?

He's Caucasian, but he's not unbelievably pale (like me) 

Race/ethnicity?

See above.

Nationality?

American.

Religion?

No.

Glasses?

Nuh uh.

Piercings?

Nope.

Tattoos?

Not yet.

Chest hair?

Just a couple stray hairs.

Scars? Where?

No major/noticeable ones.

Smart/not?

Extremely intelligent.

Sarcastic/not?

Not usually, but sometimes my constant sarcasm rubs off on me.

Humorous/not?

Pretty funny.

Possessive/not?

Not really... at all.

Patient/not?

Extremely patient.

Affectionate/not?

Pretty affectionate. Sometimes too much for me.

Protective/not?

Only when I need it.

Clingy/not?

Not really.

Expressive/not?

Kinda.

Talkative/quiet?

A hell of a lot quieter than me (but that's really not saying much).

Outgoing/shy?

Not really shy, but not very outgoing.

Party animal/Stay at home kind?

Stay at home.

Sporty/not?

He likes working out, but not really sports.

Artistic/not?

More than he thinks so.

Practical or more of the dreamy type?

Practical.

His Skills

Can he cook or bake?

Yeah. He cooks, I bake. I can't cook, he can't really bake. :P

Can he repair/fix things?

Yeah, I'm sure he can.

Can he dance?

Not that I've seen.

Can he sing?

He doesn't think he can, but if he actually tried, he'd sound amazing.

Can he draw?

He can indeed.

Can he play any instrument?

Nope, none.

Can he write well?

He writes cute poems, but his formal writing is pretty bad.

Can he make you laugh?

All the time.

Can he make others laugh?

I've definitely seen it.

What is his talent if he has found it?

Hmm... dunno.

Is he good at science and math?

Not great.

Things You Like About Him

What do you like about the things he says?

He makes me feel good. They're sweet, they're funny...

What do you like about the things he does?

Again, funny, sweet, cute.

What do you like about the things he does FOR YOU?

He puts up with everything even though I do a lot of things that bother him.

What part of his face do you like the most?

OMG, he has the best smile.

What part of his body do you like the most?

All of it.

What part of his personality do you like the most?

All of it.

What do you most admire about him?

Not sure really.

What part of him attracts you the most?

Everything he says and does.

Do you know what attracts him to you?

Hmm. A lot of things.

Random Quirks

Is he a pet lover?

He loves cats. And certain kinds of dogs.

Animal lover?

Yeah, he likes them.

Is he environmental-friendly?

Not especially, but he at least recycles.

What are his views on political issues?

He's a moderate... so varies.

Is he racist?

Not even a little.

Is he a vegetarian?

Haha. NO.

Does he drink?

Indeed.

Smoke?

Not cigarettes. ;)

Curse?

Not as much as me, but yeah.

Sleep around?

No.

Abuse drugs?

No.

Is he hairy?

Eh. No more than any other man.

Does he donate to beggars?

Not usually.

Is he neat/messy?

Neat. He nags me about cleaning a lot.

His love life

Is he a romantic? Self-professed or closet?

Closet romantic.

Is he sentimental?

Not a lot.

How did he woo you?

He didn't have to.

Does he give you flowers?

No, he thinks it's stupid to buy flowers because they die.

Does he lavish you with gifts?

No. He buys me nice gifts when he buys them, though.

Does he pay for your meals/tickets/etc?

We eat out every week and we alternate who pays.

Is he okay with confessing his love for you in public?

Yeah, he doesn't mind at all.

Does he express his love for you in words or actions?

Both.

Things you don’t like about him (though you accept his faults)

Any habits of his that you dislike?

I can't think of any, actually.

Any part of his appearance that you dislike?

I kinda wish he would get back in shape a bit more.

Any part of his character that you dislike?

There are a few things...

Your feelings for him

So..how long have you two been together?

2 years and a month.

Do you truly love him?

Yeah. <3

Does he truly love you?

Yep.

Can you envision marrying him?

Not anytime soon, but sure, someday.

What Zodiac Sign Are You Most Compatible With?

Aries
[x]You don’t like routine and like surprising people you love.
[x]You are all right with your partner being dominant.
[x]You don’t mind if your partner has had a lot of lovers before you, as long as they are loyal to you.
[ ]You don’t shy away from conflict.
[x]Physical actions demonstrate love better than words.
[x]You like it when someone knows what they want and is even a little stubborn about it.
[x]You’d prefer things in your relationship to be spontaneous rather than routine.
[x]You love classic romantic gestures.
[x]You need a great deal of freedom and independence.
[ ]You are a Leo or Sagittarius.
Total: 8

Taurus
[x]You have no problem with stubborn people - you can stand your own ground.
[x]You are a homebody and take pride in your space.
[x]You want to get to know your partner’s family and friends well.
[x]You are okay with people who have mood swings.
[ ]You want to move fairly slowly in your relationship.
[ ]You don’t want to have to worry about your own money.
[x]You definitely want to have a family one day.
[ ]You like romance, but not overly mushy gestures.
[ ]You want intense loyalty, even to the point of slight possessiveness.
[ ]You are a Virgo or Capricorn.
Total: 5

Gemini
[x]You love to talk and get into long conversations.
[x]You are intelligent and refined.
[x]You don’t mind if your partner flirts with others as long as it’s innocent.
[x]You find the idea of pampering your partner rewarding and fun.
[x]You need to be with someone who is constantly active and doing exciting things.
[x]You like to reinvent yourself - staying the same for too long is boring.
[ ]You’re more interested in experiencing the world than serious, traditional family life.
[x]You have a wide variety of interests.
[ ]You want your partner to talk a lot in bed.
[ ]You are a Libra or Aquarius.
Total: 7

Cancer
[x]You’d like a partner who is very emotional.
[ ]You think patience is a virtue.
[x]You demonstrate your love for others and make sure they know they are loved.
[x]You want children and love people who are good with kids.
[ ]Romance-novel quality romance is appealing to you.
[x]You are deep and think a lot about life.
[x]You want to be with someone who you can share everything with, and vice versa.
[x]You are okay with moodiness.
[x]People have told you that you make them feel safe.
[ ]You are a Scorpio or Pisces.
Total: 7

Leo
[ ]You like people who tend to be the center of attention.
[x]You want to be in a relationship that is fun and exciting!
[x]You’re okay with your partner choosing most of your dates.
[x]You want someone to be protective of you.
[x]You love classic romantic things like roses and candlelit dinners.
[ ]The people you find attractive are usually conventionally attractive, “hot” people.
[ ]You want to live an indulgent, luxurious lifestyle.
[ ]You are very careful not to hurt or offend your partner.
[x]You don’t really care about privacy.
[ ]You are a Sagittarius or Aries.
Total: 5

Virgo
[x]You like quiet, reserved people.
[x]Large, flowery displays of love aren’t important to you.
[x]You’re okay with a partner who worries a lot and is a perfectionist.
[x]If you like someone, you just want to get into it instead of dancing around the issue!
[x]You think intellectualism is sexy.
[ ]You are not messy and organize your home well.
[ ]You would prefer a stable life to a crazy, overly adventurous one.
[ ]You are fairly conservative personally.
[ ]Commitment is a non-issue to you, it just comes naturally.
[ ]You are a Capricorn or Taurus.
Total: 5

Libra
[x]You want to be with someone who is very balanced and stable.
[x]You hate getting into fights with your partner, even if neither of you get your way.
[x]If your partner was very inexperienced with relationships, you wouldn’t mind.
[x]You value politeness.
[ ]You don’t mind contradictions.
[x]You love it when someone is outwardly charming and seductive.
[ ]You like the finer things in life.
[ ]You prefer large parties to small gatherings.
[x]You have a clear idea of what you want out of a relationship.
[x]You are a Aquarius or Gemini.
Total: 7

Scorpio
[ ]You’re an all-or-nothing person - either the best relationship of your life, or none at all.
[x]You find eyes the sexiest physical feature.
[x]You want an extremely passionate, intense relationship in all aspects.
[x]You find mysterious people particularly attractive.
[ ]You are not scared away by jealousy or even obsession.
[ ]You have never and would never cheat on your partner.
[ ]If someone is not very open about themselves until you get very close to them, that’s fine with you.
[x]You often find yourself strangely drawn to people, and you can’t understand why!
[x]You don’t want someone who is vanilla in bed.
[ ]You are a Pisces or Cancer.
Total: 5

Sagittarius
[x]You are optimistic and fun-loving.
[x]Words don’t really do it for you - as long as you know your partner loves you, that’s enough.
[x]You need someone who you can thoroughly trust.
[x]You like adventures - rock climbing or going on a road trip appeals to you.
[x]You want to be with someone who will be a great parent.
[x]You like giving people compliments.
[ ]You need quite a bit of space in your relationship.
[ ]Commitment isn’t a big deal to you right now.
[ ]You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[ ]You are an Aries or Leo.
Total: 6

Capricorn
[x]You can crack through a shy person’s shell easily.
[ ]You like the idea of being someone’s first and only lover.
[ ]You think marriage is important and definitely want to get married.
[ ]You aren’t afraid of commitment in any way.
[ ]You don’t really like it when someone overtly flirts with you.
[x]You’re okay with your partner being very attached to their family and close friends.
[ ]You are a hard worker and value work a lot.
[ ]You prefer routine to spontaneity.
[ ]You want to be with someone who can give you advice.
[ ]You are a Taurus or Virgo.
Total: 2

Aquarius
[x]You want to go on creative, fun dates every time - the movies and dinner are boring!
[x]You don’t mind if your partner is shy in the beginning.
[x]You rarely offend people and try to be sensitive to others.
[ ]You hate public displays of affection.
[x]You don’t want to be with your partner anywhere close to 24/7 - you both need space.
[x]You’d love to be with someone who would write you love letters.
[x]You aren’t a very traditional person.
[x]You want to be friends with your partner first.
[x]You want someone who is loyal, but not overly possessive.
[x]You are a Gemini or Libra.
Total: 9

Pisces
[x]You are in tune with your feelings and those of others.
[ ]You find artists (of any type) particularly attractive.
[x]You don’t mind taking your time in getting to know someone well.
[x]You’d be willing to indulge any of your partner’s fantasies.
[ ]You prefer long-term, serious from the start relationships.
[ ]If your partner idealized you and put you on a pedestal, that wouldn’t bother you.
[x]You want an emotionally intense, sensitive partner.
[ ]You are good at keeping track of practical details.
[x]If your relationship has ups and downs, that’s okay with you, or even preferred.
[ ]You are a Cancer or Scorpio.
Total:  5

You are a(n): Gemini
& you are most compatible with: Aquarius

100 Questions About my Boyfriend

1. Does he ever sing in the bath or shower?
   Only when I'm showering with him, haha.
2. Would he consider you to be a good driver?
   He's actually never been in a car with me while I'm driving.
3. Has he ever made love in the open air?
   I don't think so.
4. Has he ever made a fraudulent insurance claim?
   Not that I know of.
5. Is he generally a tidy person?
   He's way tidier than me, that's for sure. :P
6. Does he know your mothers maiden name?
   Yup.
7. Has he ever collected stamps?
   We haven't really discussed it, but I doubt it.
8. Does he believe in god?
   Not even a little.
9. Does he always remember important dates such as anniversaries and birthdays?
   Haha. Not really. :P
10. Does he watch too much TV?
    No, he hardly watches any.
11. Does he eat too much fast food?
    He hates fast food.
12. Is he a good lover?
    Mmhmm. ;)
13. Has he ever been in a sex shop?
    I don't know. Maybe?
14. Does he like foreign foods?
    Yus.
15. Do you know exactly how much money he earns?
    Haha. Yeah, I guess. He doesn't exactly have a job...
16. Does he try and speak a foreign language on holiday?
    We haven't been anywhere exotic, but I don't think so.
17. Does he swear too much?
    No, I'm pretty sure he swears less than me
18. Does he waste time and money on computer games?
    A lot of it, actually. But I do too, so...
19. Does he find any of his friends sexy?
    Just me. :P
20. Does he regularly suffer from flatulence after a meal?
    Not all the time, but sometimes, sure.
21. Does he pick his nose in public if he thinks nobody is looking?
    No, he isn't a nose picker.
22. Does he ever pee in the shower?
    No, he thinks it's gross.
23. Does he moan?
    I haven't ever heard him do it.
24. Does he like women with tattoos?
    Well, he'd better, since I plan on getting at least 2 or 3 more once I finish the big one that's on my upper back.
25. Does he like shopping with you?
    Not especially. Grocery shopping, yes. But if I take him to the mall, he gets really cranky.
26. Does he help with household chores?
    He does more than I do.
27. Does he control the TV remote?
    Only to mess with the volume.
28. Does he have a good singing voice?
    I think he does, but he doesn't even want to try,
29. Does he talk in his sleep?
    Haha, yeah he does.
30. Does he snore?
    Indeed, but so do I.
31. Does he ever sniff his underwear and socks to see if they are clean?
    Eww, no. I think he'd think that's pretty nasty.
32. Does he ever sniff his armpits to check for body odor?
    Nope. 
33. Does he ever scratch his nether regions?
    All men do. Don't even try to argue otherwise. Balls are apparently quite itchy. :P
34. Does he ever wear pants with holes in them?
    Nah, I sew 'em up for him.
35. Has he ever driven whilst over the alcohol limit?
    No, he wouldn't ever. He's really good about that.
36. Does he enjoy watching soaps?
    Not even a little.
37. Do he continually sniff rather than use a handkerchief?
    He blows his nose when he can, but he has unusually large sinuses and is always either runny nosed or congested. :(
38. Does he have a high sex drive?
    Higher than me. :/
39. Is he argumentative?
    He likes "debating" I don't.
40. Does he ever suffer from road rage?
    Nope.
41. Does he always wash his hands after using the toilet?
    If he pees, no, but otherwise, always.
42. Does he always leave the toilet in the condition he expects to find it?
    If you mean does he put the seat down, yes, but only because it doesn't stay up on its own. But I honestly don't make any rules about that. He doesn't ask me to put the seat up for him, so I don't ask him to put it down for me.
43. Could he cook a roast dinner on his own?
    Oh yeah. He's a much better cook than I am. I can just bake.
44. Does he ever drink too much alcohol?
    Nah, if he drinks too much he gets motion sickness and he doesn't especially like drinking.
45. Is he grumpy in the mornings?
    No, he's a morning person.
46. Does he regularly iron his own clothes?
    No, he never has, I don't think.
47. Is he good at DIY?
    Depends on what it is, but he can be.
48. Is he afraid of heights?
    Nope.
49. Is he a hypochondriac?
    Nope.
50. Would he or does he play an equal part in the rearing of his family?
    He would, probably.
51. Would he act in a blue movie if the price was right?
    I highly doubt it.
52. Would he preform a base jump for $1 million?
    Possibly?
53. Does he ever worry about his finances?
    Not a lot.
54. Would he mind if his in-laws moved in with you both?
    He likes my mom and stepdad, but it would be cramped.
55. Would he mind if his boss was a woman?
    No, not at all.
56. Would he like to occasionally spend a week without you?
    He does like a little break from me once in awhile. ;)
57. Is he compassionate and understanding if you are suffering the ‘time of the month’?
    Haha. Sometimes.
58. Has he ever farted audibly infront of you?
    We live together. Kinda unavoidable.
59. Does he think that he has a reasonable body?
    No, he constantly complains about it. D:
60. Has he ever used illegal drugs?
    Yup.
61. Is he moody?
    Not at all.
62. Does he know how much you weigh?
    Yeah.
63. Has he ever been on a blind date?
    I think he kinda has. He's at least been set up by a friend.
64. Does he consider himself generous?
    I don't know.
65. Does he consider himself competitive?
    I also don't know that.
66. Would he consider having the snip?
    Possibly once he's older and has had a child.
67. Would he consider doing a free fall parachute jump for charity?
    Possibly.
68. Would he confront a burglar in his own home?
    Yeah, he would.
69. Would he agree to be hypnotized in front of an audience?
    I don't know. He doesn't believe in hypnotism, so probably not.
70. Has he ever made love in a public place?
    I don't think so...
71. If Liz Hurley offered herself to him, do you think he would accept?
    I don't think so.
72. Have your parents ever seen him naked?
    Why would that ever happen?
73. Does he consider himself romantic?
    No, but he is.
74. Does he regularly give you flowers?
    No.
75. Whilst on a bus, plane or train, has he ever stared at a womens chest so much that she’s noticed?
    No, he's pretty discreet.
76. Has he ever watched exotic dancers?
    Maybe. I dunno.
77. Does he know your shoe size?
    Probably not by heart, but I wrote all my sizes down for him somewhere once.
78. Does he know your bust size?
    Yes, actually.
79. Does he have fewer than 5 annoying habits?
    Maybe?
80. Does he know the date of your fathers birthday?
    No.
81. Does he always cast his vote?
    No. In fact, I couldn't get him to vote last election.
82. Does he think he is funny?
    No, but he is.
83. Does he like cheese?
    Who doesn't like cheese?
84. Does he have a huge appetite?
    Sometimes.
85. Has he ever fantasized about one of his work mates?
    I don't think so. He doesn't have any workmates, currently.
86. Does he think he is handsome?
    No, but he is.
87. Does he regularly speed on the motorway?
    Umm... I don't think so? Is a motorway a freeway? (I'm American.)
88. Has he ever shaved other parts of his body apart from his face?
    I think he has in the past, but not recently.
89. Does he have a pet name for you?
    We have a few cutesy names.
90. Does he ever avoid the question for a quiet life?
    What? I have no idea what this question means...
91. Is he overweight?
    No, but he thinks he is... :/
92. If he won the lotto jackpot would he give some to charity?
    I'm not sure.
93. Does he usually leave the loo seat up?
    I mentioned this above.
94. Does he spend more than 2 hours watching TV each night?
    No. He doesn't watch TV every night.
95. Does he spend more than an hour exercising each week?
    No.
96. Has he had sexual relations with more than 10 different women?
    Nope, only 3.
97. Could he be a hangman?
    Maybe.
98. Can he stand the sight of blood?
    Oh yeah.
99. Has he ever had an autograph book?
    Unlikely.
100. Has he ever won a competition?
     Not that I've heard of.

Relationship Survey

1st off whats his/her name?  Ryan.

What makes him/her so amazing? He's funny, he knows how to deal with my mood swings, he shares nerdy interests with me, and he puts up with all my shit.

Does he/she bring out the best in you?  Yeah, I'd say he does.

How old is he/she?  22.

How old are you?  20.

How long have you been together?  A year and almost 10 months.

Do or did you celebrate monthly anniversaries?  No, it's kinda silly.

Have you ever broken up and got back together?  No, we haven't.

What sweet names or nicknames do you call each other?  He's Pancake and I'm Waffle, or he's Sniffles and I'm Fidget. Then of course we call each other the usual ones, sweetie, honey, love, baby/babe, darling, etc.

Can you talk to him/her about anything?  Of course I can.

Can you trust him/her with your deepest secret?  Yep.

Can you share your every thought without questioning yourself? I live with him, so I can't really help myself, my mouth usually is connected right to my brain. :P

Would you take a bullet for him/her? Probably if it came to that, though I don't think he'd let me.

If you didn’t have sex with him/her, would you cheat, or wait?  I would wait... but I didn't have to.

Whats most important to you in a relationship? Communication and respect.

Is it love or lust? 100%, without a doubt, love.

Do you really know the difference? I do.

Who gave whom their phone number first? Not sure... it doesn't matter.

Was the 3-day phone rule used? Not really. We kinda spent all our time together since we lived two floors apart in our dorm.

Anything you wish to change about him/her? I wish he was a little more social, but I understand that he has social anxiety.

What attracted you the most? He was cute, sweet, and funny.

Did you ever get butterflies?  Occasionally.

What are your intentions? Umm...? O.o

Would you say your relationship is growing? If not, what would make it better? I don't know that it can really grow anymore. We love each other, we're best friends, we live together...

Do you see a future with him/her? Yes, but I think when he moves back to Washington and we'll be long distance for a year, it will really test how long this will last.

Do you think he/she feels the same way? I think he isn't even worried about the long distance thing. We've talked about it before, a bit.

Have you discussed future children's names together? Yep, down to the nerdy middle names. I won't put his last name here, but a girl would be Lily Eowyn *******, and a boy would be Vincent Thor *******.

Has he/she bought you any jewelry?  Yeah, our first Christmas together he gave me a beautiful necklace that I can't find the chain for. :(

Has he/she bought you any flowers or teddy bears? He bought me a stuffed Chococat. No flowers, though.

What about chocolates when it wasn’t Valentines Day? Probably. I don't remember.

Does he/she get along with your friends and family? Yeppity yep! He and my stepdad have a serious bromance going on.

Do the two of you live together? Yes indeedy.

Would you live together before marriage? We do.

Did you know each other long before dating? A couple months.

Where was your 1st date? I honestly don't remember.

Where did your 1st kiss take place? On his bed.

Who said I Love You 1st? He did. 

Where is he/she right now? He is visiting his family in Washington.

Do you think he/she will read this survey? No, since this blog is kinda my secret thing.